Why I haven't posted recently, and what I'm going to do about that (including suspending paid subscriptions for a month)
Reading everything you've written about your experience with COVID so far, including how much you've pushed yourself and how brain fog has interfered already, I want to beg you to please rest.
Pushing through all the fatigue and fog can make them chronic... I speak from experience, and unfortunately know quite a lot of others who have had the same experience. It tears a soul completely up to lose ...words. I have actually lost them enough that even right now, I had wanted to say something else but I can't remember the right phrase.
Public health has been bad at advising about how to avoid Long COVID, so those of us who have already been through post viral chronic illness try to share our lives as cautionary tales. Caution number one: mental exertion is basically as exhausting as physical exertion, but I bet you probably have already felt that.
Anyway, you're a treasure and I hope that you can give yourself the same care you would give one of your own loved ones. Really be gentle and kind to yourself and really truly rest. More than you're used to, more than you think is required, more than you want to. Even more than all that. Radical rest. Rest as hard as you possibly can.
Cause, we do want you back! But not quickly. Quality over, uh, quickness. Fully, wholly recovered!
Ok sorry for unsolicited advice. I just worry like a mother hen when I read the type of things like you've written in this last missive. Cluck, cluck.
Be well. Take care of you. As a paid subscriber, I appreciate the head’s up as I would’ve been wondering why the payment didn’t go through
Damn vaccines 🤢 Unfortunately no unvaccine is available 🥲Hope you and your family will be well soon🙏
Talking from experience: that Covid-brain-fog is one hell of a trip on its own... Take care please and I wish you and your family a quick recovery.
Oh man, my comment on your last post seems rather insensitive. I had no idea you've been sick on top of it all. I know how Covid finds new ways to ravage a healthy body, and I hope you and your family recover fully soon. I think that most who support you do it because we know that life happens, and you are passionate about seeing this through - no need to feel guilty for not having produced for a while. At least I am supporting the greater effort, rather than individual posts.
"Even though we were double-vaccinated, and boosted, it hit us pretty hard"
many such cases
get well soon
Hope you are all feeling tip top really soon. It IS important to rest. But I think it’s not something you are good at... x
Good morning Julian :)
Thank you for letting me know what's going on. To be honest: I hadn't noticed. I'm signed up to so many different inputs that posts that come more often than two weeks are rather a nuisance - even when I like the author's style! So for me personally, three weeks of your silence don't feel like the eternity of not having talked to the people I'm obliged to please - as one might with the substacker's hat on. Happened to me a lot and I also decided to suspend paid subsriptions. But a paid subscription - and now I'm putting on my consumer's hat again - as NOT a reward for a post I've read. It is a funding to receive posts in the future. To make it all possible. I don't perceive it to be a virtue to say no to funding in a time where you are not in the condition to provide it yourself. Funding is also not about the present, it's about the future. Like that insurance money we pay for the what-ifs of the future.
Apart from that, I feel you losing the recording! All the pleasure of listening to a great conversation once again, maybe even understanding some aspects of it differently - Lost! Mein Beileid, as we say in German. And as we say in English: This, too, shall pass. 🍀
Sending you all my best thoughts and wishing you rest and recovery!! It’s no joke.
Sorry you were so unwell. It sounds dreadful. We had it a year ago, but seem to have got off comparatively lightly.
And unless I have amnesia, I didn't know you and Solana had a child! It's hard to believe that almost a whole four-year-old's life has passed since I saw you. Congratulations.
Oh, and congratulations too on being right about the universe.
Sorry to hear of you covid problems, no fun at all. Good idea to suspend subscriptions to take the pressure off. Delighted that the James Webb images are confirming this beautiful theory and that the mainstream scinetists are beginning to reassess things. Hope you can soon get a response to that paper together. But I agree with Julie, more important to rest.
Didn't realise you have an Irish connection!
So sorry to hear about your struggles and i highly encourage you to remember herbal steams (the old bowl with a towel over your head) that are so helpful for lung recovery - thyme steam is my fav. As reliable as the hot water bottle! And please, to keep on doing the vital and wonderful work you're doing maybe consider not getting anymore covid boosters. they dont seem to help and we dont know what else they do.
I just signed up after reading the text about the End Poem. I received this in my inbox before I even got confirmation that I've signed up to receive them.
The universe isn't playing today.